Moving On.

Question:

Dear Sir, I am 29 years old female. I was in a relationship with my childhood friend…we have known each other for 15 years and we had been dating for 11 years. Everyone around us knew one day we will be getting married, including myself. We shared trust, respect, unconditional acceptance of each other and even after 11 years we are inseparably connected. He had been a huge influence in my life, he allowed me to love my self and always be myself. I admire his personality, core values and how good of human being he is. However, a big setback has left us both in pain and grief. Due to some reasons important from his family's perspective, he cannot marry me, yet he refuses to let go of me. However, I broke up with him two years ago because I wanted him to move on in his life if he could not marry me. He should accept it, let go and accept his own decision. I was angry at first and then I was in denial. I never believed it will actually end like this and then I was grieving it for about two years. Now, I have come to peace with it, I am not angry and neither in pain. I shared very respectful, pure and eternal connection with this soul and I am grateful that Life gave me such beautiful experience. But I feel I am not ready to move on to allow someone else to come in that place in my life. I am 29 and Indian, so the pressure of marriage is overwhelmingly haunting me from all directions. Where ever I go, whomever I meet, everyone tells me I should not delay it further. My ex has also not moved on yet. Sometimes I feel maybe it's a sign and maybe he will come back in my life, other times I feel he wants me to get married first so he moves on without that burden of leaving me behind (although I don't blame him or have anything against him). I don't know what I should do.