Grieving Father’s Death.
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Question:
I lost my father August last year. He left to his native Mexico on his birthday to get treatment. He passed five days later. He was an alcoholic and his body stopped functioning. I was unable to fly to his funeral I was three weeks away from giving birth to my son. I feel as if he is still over there even though I know he has passed. I feel as if I haven’t been able to grieve. I feel anger and resentment because my entire family were able to be there. I feel as if I’m the only one in denial. I don’t know how to come to terms with the grief that I feel is somewhere deep down inside me.
Response:
When a death is hard to grieve because you have not been a part of the burial ceremonies, then you may need a way to make it more tangible. It may help to go visit his gravesite and spend some time there expressing your feelings and thoughts. If that is not possible then get a picture of him and talk to it. Have a good cry if it comes naturally. Again express your feelings, fears, frustrations, love, … whatever comes up as you remember your father and his life. If you feel too self-conscious talking out loud, then write it all down in a notebook. And periodically you can pause and listen and notice if anything arises in you that feels like a response from your dad. Write that down as well. Don’t worry if it’s “real” or not, that is not the point. The point is to grieve properly so you can heal and move on with your life.
If you give this process the time and attention it needs, you will be able to access your grief and get past your anger and resentment over missing the funeral.
Love,
Deepak