When your mind and heart are truly open abundance will flow to you effortlessly and easily.
I know that I create everything that is in my life, and I know that what I think and feel becomes my reality, but even now I have proven this to myself time and time again, It seems like I still want and need drama in my life, and I fall and feel exhausted, uninspired, broke, and dead ended again. This is far from the law of less effort for me. What am I doing/being/ thinking/ feeling wrong about it?
You’re not doing anything wrong, it just takes time to dissolve and empty this cycle of dramas and to fully realize that your true nature is not the role you are playing, but the one who is writing the script. Even when we intellectually understand this, we need to learn this at the emotional level, the physical level and most importantly at the non-verbal level of our pure consciousness. Once we completely own our real Self, we are no longer a puppet of these drama cycles.