Reluctant Healer.

Question:

For most of my adult life, I have had the “knowingness” that healing “auras”, or energies, pass through my hands, and can, perhaps, be effective in easing the suffering of others.  Mostly, I have placed my hands on my children, or husband, usually without their knowledge, but occasionally, I have directed this energy long-distance, and the results have been such that I am both gladdened and also, slightly frightened.

I am an RN, but haven’t worked as such in many years.  My husband is a retired ophthalmologist, one son is a family practitioner, and another son-in-law is also an ophthalmologist.  I mention this only so that you will know that I’ve spent my life immersed in the field of medicine…..and hence, have encountered enough disbelief to make me question myself.  I am, however, certified in PSM and SSLY……and have always sought spiritual direction in my life.  Your teachings have been wonderfully illuminating, confirming, in a way, what I’ve always known, and leading to a deepening and opening in my spiritual life.

My question is how to appropriately use these gifts.  I have been advised to ask permission of the person before sending the healing……….but this seems presumptuous, and implies that “I” can actually “heal”.  I feel that this is energy that simply passes through me, and that virtually anyone could ”do” the same thing.  Yet my intuition tells me to use this gift.  I don’t wish to withhold this nor do I wish to set myself up as some sort of healer!  Help!