Pursuing What You Love.
When your mind and heart are truly open abundance will flow to you effortlessly and easily.
Dear Deepak, I have been frustrated for almost 4 years now. I am about to turn 25 and I’m still doing my degree in business. This is what my father wanted me to study. The problem is I found out my spirituality or true self and how good it does to you to pursue the things you love. This happened in the summer of 2010, an extremely happy summer, but then I had to go back to school and I found out that I was never taught to be myself. All my life I had been doing what my parents told me to do. I’ve been thinking on quitting my degree since then and I haven’t done it. I have one more semester to go but all this time of indecision got me into a severe crisis of which I am finally getting over with the help of some people. I had to stop studying for a while. Now I’m better but I’m not what I used to be. All this nasty and numb experience has made me a person full of resentment and hatred especially towards my family. I don’t want to finish my degree but everyone tells me I should, that I don’t have the character to go out there and built things by myself without a title. I don’t even know what I want to do anymore anyway. I feel my brain got damaged, and this scares me a lot. I don’t feel like a healthy person anymore and I feel very lonely. I feel old. I feel I have wasted the last 3 years of my life and this thought hurts a lot. Will you be so kind to share any advice? Thanks.
It’s good to pursue what you love, but as you said, you don’t know what you want to do. Leaving school is not likely to clarify things. It’s okay if you aren’t sure yet what you want to do in life, and that uncertainty does not have to be a source of frustration. Despite your comment about feeling old, I assure you that at 25 you are not old, and as your life unfolds you will no doubt find that your business degree will help even if you end up pursuing a non-business career. I have known successful sculptors, teachers and lawyers who all started out with business degrees, and even though they ended up doing something different, they all tell me how they use that knowledge in aspects of their present work. I recommend that you keep going in your present direction, and life experience will bring you the answers and clarity of purpose that you don’t yet have.