When your mind and heart are truly open abundance will flow to you effortlessly and easily.
Why is it, as soon as I see my issues and try to make changes it feels like I’m being tested more and more. is this really happening or is it that I’m more aware?
It’s because that silent awareness is growing stronger in you, so you are looking at your issues with greater objectivity and dispassion. That often leads one to see the forces of one’s old conditioning as a problem that needs to be dealt with—a test. But it’s not really a test in that sense. Becoming more aware is the big accomplishment. You transform the old habits, behavior and thought patterns by letting your non-judgmental attention do the work at a subtle level. Your job is to be aware, be the silent witness, and not reenter the struggle and try to conquer the problem through will power. That only adds energy to the conflict and prolongs the issue. Let your gentle, compassionate and non-attached awareness bring about the transformation without struggle or stress.