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Tired of Life

 Hello Deepak. I feel this sadness in my soul. Not only in my body. I look at life and people and somehow I want to escape this prison caught in this body, in this place, and in this time.. I feel there is nothing new for me in store. I feel everything is old on earth and I have been through it all for thousands of thousands of years, somehow I am also bored. I go along with life, but I feel it is the same old song, even when something new and exciting happen. I do feel joy, but somehow I feel it is a game I have played too long and I am 25. Life is long.. What to do? I would be happy for any thoughts. Thanks.


This is a question or a comment that I am seeing quite often these days from people of all ages from all parts of the world. It’s not really depression, it’s a kind of world weariness that is not only fed up with the violence and suffering all around, but even the joy and sweetness of life feels faded and tasteless. It may not feel like this is a positive or spiritual development in one’s life, but it actually indicates a major shift in one’s core identity away from the external world, to the inner realm of one’s pure consciousness. It can feel very unsettling and disorienting as the attachments and passions of one’s old familiar life come untethered and you start to feel you are watching your life as a spectator and not really enjoying the way this play is written or acted. It’s an odd feeling as the interior landscape of one’s self-identity is rearranged. But once you know what’s going on, and that it is a temporary phase until the new you comes online, it is much easier to bear. The main thing is not to literally believe that the detachment you feel means that you need to leave your body, or the world and others around you. That sense of feeling apart and aloof is a by-product of the spiritual transformations in consciousness that you have set in motion, it is not a message telling you that life is boring or that life is over…quite the opposite.
There is a part of you that now sees life as a game, that means that your silent witness self observes all the drama of your life from a perspective unmoved and apart from that drama. That is your real self. And part of your current drama or game is this notion that life on earth is the same worn-out story, that it’s a prison. Use the vantage of your higher self to see this story of being sentenced to a long boring life in prison as just another dramatic story of your old self that you no longer buy into or identify with. Right now the focus of your life needs to center on just Being. Be that silent witness that notices all these stories about your life without judgment and without getting sucked into them. Over time as this core spiritual self becomes firmly established, it reengages with the emotional currents of your life -- lovers, family, career – so that you feel passion and enthusiasm once more. But now this passion is connected to your spiritual center and you can never lose yourself as you throw yourself into love, work, or life itself. That is when the real fun starts.


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What i dont understand is I was in a complete whiteout and i drive a white car (A WHITE OUT IS WORSE THAN FOG O VISABILITY)---i laid my head on the steering wheel and literally said goodbye, there have been fatal accidents there before----a diesel truck lit up like a christmas tree all of a sudden was in front of me leading me out... as he pulled me out and i pulled along side of it there was no logo ,nor could i see anyone in the drivers seat... it vanished...... my tears
so i ask god ,if it is not my time to go --- what is the plan ---as i wrote below --my soul is tired
karla h - August 24, 2015
I understand , I read the below comments, I so feel the same way. Being surrounded in such negative hateful situations.
My cousin told me, along with others and you have helped so many people and yet life tortures you and the cruelty of other people try and take you down, we though by now life rewards would be with you..
Ive given up my spirit is broken along with weary. I ASK GOD TO TAKE ME.... WHEN BAD THING CONTINUALLY HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE....FOR OVER 5 years , besisdes listening meditation on christian tape and spiritual , also the secret..... tears shed .... my soul is tired and longs to go home ---living in a survival mode is not living
karla h - August 24, 2015
I am not sure I know what you said but it seemed as though it made you feel good so please say it again.
Reedy - July 4, 2015
I have three children but yet my husband always tortures me everyday, even now in Ramadan he has not stopped!
Sara - June 20, 2015
Hello Deepak. I've been feeling depressed lately. I'm feeling uncomfortable with life. Recently I got my girlfriend pregnant and she just had her baby not that long ago. The problem I'm having is that I met her at work. me and her been hiding our relationship with other people. My family doesn't know that I have a baby Girl. We are not the same race she's Asian and I'm European. I already know that my mom is already disappointed because I don't follow her footsteps. I feel like if I tell her the truth about what's going on in my life she will be more disappointed in me. I feel like I have no way out anymore. I should be feeling happy and full of joy because I have a lovely Girlfriend and a beautiful baby girl. Life didn't turn out the way i excited it. Hopefully there is a way out. I don't want to do something I will regret all my life.
Imran - May 20, 2015
I have something in my hand and I was thinking that before leaving this world let's see any one other facing the same situation. Ok bye bye take care of yourself. I'm praying that God will forgive me pray for me. I want haven for me.
No name any more - May 16, 2015
I have had depression all my life since 17. Serious depression..which has been suicidal ideation.My life is like a Bad movie watched over and over and over again. There have been many good parts, and I appreciate that. I am kind, and try and be positive but it is NOT enough, and I feel I have the right to take my own life..I have tried therapy and is NOT my solution..I am not planning to kill myself..know but my gas tank is empty and in the next 6 months..I might with NO regrets. I encourage others to try therapy and miedication beofre doing something drastic. I have tried ALL the medications..and many therpapsits and have live an interesting life and tried and seen many things...I appreciate that and IHATE self pity in me...I don't feel like a is life there in no fairness and I am not complaing..I am just EXCEPTIONALLY tired..and unafraid of death
Robert - May 15, 2015
I can relate. I have also been experiencing the same old. I feel tired. of this life.. Nothing seems to be going well...not even prayers seem to be working. The more I tfy to reach at some goal the more disappointments I get. I feel stuck. I feel lost. In some dark cave or dark forest, so many different paths and not sure which one to take. When will this end when can I finally breath or have a sigh of relief. May God help us.
Emma - May 13, 2015